happy birthday nanna

Nanna,

Your birthday has always been special to me. I remember those days when I made a small card for u with some scribbled picture when I was a child, how I bought a small piece of a cake to make you smile while returning from school. Growing up it became much special day as it was your anniversary too. You showed the beauty of marriage through your love towards mom which I admire the most about you. You are so special to us nanna , you taught us love, kindness and caring. Nothing in the world can match your love. There isn't one single day when I hadn't thought I could turn the time back and live with you and mom again. Those days where we went places and long drives I relive them in my memory. I wish things were just the same and you are with us. But I know you are my angel now. And you are with me wherever you are. I miss you nanna. And I love you. Happy birthday nanna. You will always live with me in every breath I take.

Happy birthday nanna

In every breath I take and every thought I make..

You are alive..

As a part of your body and blood flows through me..

You are alive..

For every deed I do through the lessons you taught..

You are alive..

For every year I live a year is added to your birthday.. and you are alive..

For the part of your soul that retains in all of us..

You are among us and you are alive..

You live until the last air I breathe..

You live every moment I reminisce..

Happy 64th birthday Nanna..

No Never

You can cry hard and soak your pillows with tears

But can never forget to smile..

You can fall or fail in your struggles

But can never give up on your goals..

You can be ditched by life or people at times

But can never stop believing in your self..

You can be broke or disheartened

But can never lose faith..

Nevertheless the bullies and pains

Despairs and defeats..

You can never belittle your worth..

I wish

I wish I could go back in time..

I wish I could say how much I love you..

I wish I could say all those untold words which I regret of not saying it you..

I wish I could spend more time with you..

I wish I could talk to you more often..

If I could go back in time..

If I had a chance to be with you again..

I would shower all my love to you openly

And say how much I love and respect you..

The pain of untold words and unasked apologies..

The regret of not being with you when you needed me the most will live with me forever..

I wish I could say I'm still the little girl of yours.. 

I wish I could say how much I miss you and how I long to see you and talk to you..

I wish I could apologize for all the pain and struggle I have put you through..

If only I had a chance I would relive a thousand more times the life I spent with you..

If only I had a chance I would say a ton of times that I love you and you are the dearest person of mine..

If only I had a chance I would take every chance to make moments and cheer you as much as I can..

I wish life could give a chance to me to go back

I wish life could give a chance for you to come back..

Love you nanna

to live without you

Nanna...

To live without you is..

To fight my tears and spread smile on lips

To console my heart to accept truth 

And live life as it comes..

To understand that a new year can pass by without having you with us..

To grow mentally to look for better things even when the heart is sinking deep in sorrow..

To allow myself to be happy and say it's ok even when I miss u a ton each day..

Happy new year nanna where ever you are..stay happy nanna..we all love you..