I feel pressure is good.

I was enjoying my magnum ice cream after having my lunch( biryani) Sunday special u see and was thinking..why am I having it when I don't want to have it? Well I have been trying to diet from a long time since my marriage. Marriage has given me a freedom to eat anything I like. I now have no pressure to think how I look and how much I put on and also for the fact that I'm staying home..thanks to corona..I feel okay to indulge in my favorite food. But the guilt that peeks out when I see myself in my mirror cautions me enough. I shrugg it off and say just one more time whenever I wish to eat something very tasty..all the tasty ones are mostly fattening! So I was thinking I was better when I had some pressure on me atleast with the thought how people think of me when I go for work. Coz I used to workout and diet. Sometimes pressure is good too..